👨💻 In the mood to tinker.
👨💻 In the mood to tinker.
🍿 Family movie night: You’ve Got Mail. Such a wonderful classic!
🥶 37* F outside this morning. Coffee always tastes that much better when it is cold out.
🍂 Outside temps getting down to the typical morning range for this time of year.
☕ Good morning world. Small update to my /now page.
😴 Days/weeks/months lately have been incredibly busy. My usual quest for balance continues.
🍷 Winding down. Think I'll start Slow Horses S5.
🧹 Yard sale today.
🗓️ Almost a full year since my last "status update". What a whirlwind. Thrilled to be back, happy to get to a place where I'm able to put words to things.
These honest conversations with Lindsay are the absolute best. I have so much to share, there is so much path yet to follow, but this level of alignment in all areas of life is something I have never felt before.
The guilt is at its worst each night and morning.
Grateful log for Wed, 30 Oct 2024
A lot of changes are coming in the near future, personal and business related. And it is all related. Will be a while, but eventually I’ll have it all sorted out in my head to write a longer post.
Took coffee to Lindsay this evening after work, I was missing her and hoped she would say yes. We don’t usually see each other on Thursday or Friday and then the weekends are hit or miss. Turned into a family movie night and I loved every single minute with them.
I wake up with guilt, shame, regret. My shakes are back. Praying, writing another letter, praying.
I weep on my drive “home” now. Everything has changed again, and I pray desperately that God gives me a second chance with her. I spend the time before going to sleep writing her letters I should have written 4 years ago.
Grateful log for Wed, 23 Oct 2024
Bolted/jolted awake again, this time after only 3 hours. Hopefully tonight I can experience a full night of rest.
shakes went away, thankfully. another heart to heart tonight. 3 hours. so much progress made, still 1,000 miles to go. I’ve been asleep for so long and have so much work (mind/heart/soul) to begin.
A great school day with Mozzie!
I can feel my heart again and it is the strangest feeling.
Email sent. Waking up yesterday has so far offered nothing but continued surprises.
Grateful log for Mon, 21 Oct 2024
Woke up this morning, feeling like I woke up from being asleep for 10 years. Strange feeling, but good.
Had a brutally honest conversation with Lindsay this afternoon, after a 4-mile walk with her. Probably the first time in 10 years. Maybe 6.
And now I don’t know what I’m doing.
Grateful log for Sun, 20 Oct 2024