These honest conversations with Lindsay are the absolute best. I have so much to share, there is so much path yet to follow, but this level of alignment in all areas of life is something I have never felt before.
These honest conversations with Lindsay are the absolute best. I have so much to share, there is so much path yet to follow, but this level of alignment in all areas of life is something I have never felt before.
The guilt is at its worst each night and morning.
Grateful log for Wed, 30 Oct 2024
A lot of changes are coming in the near future, personal and business related. And it is all related. Will be a while, but eventually I’ll have it all sorted out in my head to write a longer post.
Took coffee to Lindsay this evening after work, I was missing her and hoped she would say yes. We don’t usually see each other on Thursday or Friday and then the weekends are hit or miss. Turned into a family movie night and I loved every single minute with them.
I wake up with guilt, shame, regret. My shakes are back. Praying, writing another letter, praying.
I weep on my drive “home” now. Everything has changed again, and I pray desperately that God gives me a second chance with her. I spend the time before going to sleep writing her letters I should have written 4 years ago.
Grateful log for Wed, 23 Oct 2024
Bolted/jolted awake again, this time after only 3 hours. Hopefully tonight I can experience a full night of rest.
shakes went away, thankfully. another heart to heart tonight. 3 hours. so much progress made, still 1,000 miles to go. I’ve been asleep for so long and have so much work (mind/heart/soul) to begin.
A great school day with Mozzie!
I can feel my heart again and it is the strangest feeling.
Email sent. Waking up yesterday has so far offered nothing but continued surprises.
Grateful log for Mon, 21 Oct 2024
Woke up this morning, feeling like I woke up from being asleep for 10 years. Strange feeling, but good.
Had a brutally honest conversation with Lindsay this afternoon, after a 4-mile walk with her. Probably the first time in 10 years. Maybe 6.
And now I don’t know what I’m doing.
Grateful log for Sun, 20 Oct 2024
🛌 A rather chaotic (in my head) 24 hours is coming to a close. Eager for rest.
Ok, getting this off of my chest: things change - let’s actually get back to human commerce again
ok. bed calls. will read through this again tomorrow and probably publish. has to do with my latest Etsy drama.
late( r ) night blogging = bourbon
been one of those days…weeks…
Oh Etsy. You continue to focus your “security” on the absolute wrong sellers.
Down to the last bunch.
Grateful log for Wed, 16 Oct 2024
Upon opening DayOne this morning 🙏
“Out of difficulties grow miracles.” — Jean de la Bruyere
🏈 Mozzie and I have been watching Monday Night Football on Tuesday nights.
